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the vid

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 04:13:08 GMT

Funny to know that we're in the same grounds in terms of 'certain' things. Lost love, betrayal, hanging on, distance, and HOPE. And it was also funny when we both felt bored and mellow dramatic yesterday afternoon, haha.

I'm really happy that I can feel you having that real time kilig moment, again.

Happy birthday Krisiang and I'm just so happy for you now. :)

Kung alam mo lang kung gaano ako nainspire.. magpatuloy at maghintay, gad.

fourth day

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 07:11:00 GMT

I told you months ago how I hated my life for being so boring, that all I have to do was just live and go by. It's mere living. You know for a fact that I learned to dislike changes especially when it comes to relationships. I like them steady for the next five, ten years at least, though I know they'll change. It's just that drastic changes pains me so hard.

You let me see that this is maybe the downside of having too much security in relationships. You tend to take for granted people who are always there. So then you wouldn't be ready for drastic changes. You forget the fact that changes could happen anytime. (Thanks for that)

And if you can only feel, up to now, you still have your own ways of making me feel that everything has its purpose and as well choices. :)

You're letting me feel that I won't find what I want by looking for it. That I shouldn't expect someone else to give me what I never gave myself. And if things, including you, won't go back, I'll be just fine.

Like what you were always telling me, all I need is just myself and that's no one else.

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P.S: We miss how you make things so easy and we still wish you're here.

P.S.S: And though I had only known you for eight months or so, still I lost a great friend in you.

Para kay Mareng Xanga at Pareng Tabulas

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 12:04:34 GMT

"I was thinking what was wrongwith that door, myself, or, or otherwise? Hmm. I was wondering, why andhow in the world I didn't noticed that BIG pull sign. Mm, napaisip babigla, out of the blue. Sooooo, why do people, like me, still push ondoors that have "PULL" signs on them?

Just a thought. Mmm,scientifically, maybe because pushing just requires us to straightenthe arm by relaxing the biceps. Yet, pulling requires contraction ofmuscles, exerting more force and builds up lactic acid, resulting tofatigue. Waaw, and I really thought of that plus the ATP, anearobic andaerobic whatsoever. Eh :|

Another thought. Digging deeper, thatmight be the reason why pushing someone away seems easier to do thanpulling them to come back.."

@multiply

So why the love rain?

Fri, 29 May 2009 12:17:46 GMT

Actually 'few' people really understand why I'm indulge in all the happiness every time it rains.

It's when during this time that someone will take care of the sick me; someone will cook the ultimate arroz caldo for me or sige na nga pagbigyan - cup noodles; I can hug people, I can share a space under my umbrella; I can appreciate patience under that shed; we, EHEM hindi lang ako, can be EMOs in our own rights; you can dance, cry, smile and just go crazy under it; and lastly, it's when it rains that WE CAN APPRECIATE THE SUN.

Personally speaking, the rain reminds us that, we only appreciate things when it's gone. But somehow, you see, it's also teaching us another lesson - LET GO when you finally can't take it, be free and never forget to touch the lives of people who knows your worth. Because when it rains, it touches everything. When it rains small creatures can appreciate it - I can appreciate it.

So why I love the rain? There are reasons, definitely. :)

And so 'eto.

Tue, 26 May 2009 07:52:33 GMT

"Just do what you really think would make you happy and never do something halfhearted.." - Kerbick

Parallelism has no place when it comes to this situation. So ironic nga, mare. Realization ba, one has to sacrifice, hehe :| No Melody powers, no Kerbick powers, no more powers. Haahaa, lame.

And I wonder why, oh why and just why, everything is happening - just now - EXACTLY at this point. Haahaa. Cool and so timing ala eh. And again, it's too late, you see the point of being exact, precise and on time. The point where I'm appreciating cramming rather than of being late. Hehee, aywan ko ba. Bakeet.

Pala, since yesterday was just a day, haahaa. A big 'tick' to Jever for sending me those Hayden and Katrina jokes. Haahaa, sabi ko nalang, "Sira ulo talaga.. tayo.." We were more like exchanging, inventing and spreading the haha-ness. :D

And so yun. 'Yun lang naman. :)

P.S: I just love those nimbus clouds-whatsoever for running out of space, reasons and just can't contained the water anymore! Letting the rain pour dowwwnn. Ito ang sakto, ito ang timing :)

Someone's getting old..

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 04:05:07 GMT

Like I'm having my Community Duty and at the same time celebrating a portion of my birthday, away from home. Hmmm. Yet still, community duty made me happy in some ways.

19 things for my 19th birthday coming from 19 people who had wished me happiness and more. I just want to thank them :)

Having Lexy a pot - finally. She's beautiful in her 1st year. Thanks ma :)

Meeting Gus-Gus (short for Gustavo), thanks Von. :)

An Ubeng-ube cake from my group. Na kahit na-buking buking ko eh, go pa rin :) Mahal ko naman kayo.

For my Holy Spirit, who had given my heart-shaped cake. <3

For General O and Manong Eddie, for letting us experience the Topload Fever up to Tublay. Geting farther and farther ha!

For Kanin-Get-It (sa may Gate 4), who kept us safe and hid us from the scary powers of I.R. Heehee. And salamat sa Ube and Chocolate ice creams!

For Aryan, who gave me a red-whatsoever-kung ano talaga yun-kalandian for my phone :) And ate Ube-Macapuno ice cream with me!

For Heizy, my one and only bisita last night at our home.

For Papa, who had bought another ice cream. Ube and Cheese flavored. Haha.

Melody, Law, Kerbicker and Baby Anakis for being such good accomplices.

For my Kuya, who gave me his treasured YEMA, for the first time!

For my Holy Spirit, again, for making me cry on the morning of my special day.

For mama, who called me. Sweet.

For Churva, who accompanied us all throught our home visits last Tuesday. Kahit nawawala at na-gubat-gubat kami.

To all the people, who had greeted me, special mention kay Jen Navarro (na gusto ko ang message), Ana Leah (my sister-in-law), Jever (Feeling hindi tumatanda), Lyndleness (whom I can understand during this difficult times. Hmm, smile), Ma'am Malou (Malowness na nawawala), Ate Izzel (we're both thankful naman), Rach Cortes (Ang swweeet mo parin sobra), Alyssa (the reason why I had this title for this blog), CJ (Na parehas kaming pagod, Mariel (Salamat, you remembered, sweet) and to the rest who had texted, mailed, called, friendster-ed, myspace-ed, facebook-ed and whatever means of greeting me - THANK YOU and thank yous. If only I can say it all here, why not.

To the people who had given me much, hurt me in their own ways and just walked and passed during my 18th year - thank you in whatever means and ways. :)

And lastly, for my God who had given me another year. :) Who let me realized that there are more than 19 reasons to be thankful for.

It is lovely, when I forget all birthdays, including my own,
to find that somebody remembers me.
- Ellen Glasgow

Cheers. :)

Patience for that spotlight :)

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 17:19:10 GMT

"You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try"
- Beverly Sills

Like, if I can't have it now, maybe later or sooner - tiyaga lang. I'll try and try until eventually I can have the whole world, yay. Weh, delusion of grandiosity :|

Deeh, I'll Drop it. I'll finally drop it :)

My 11-7 body, mind and soul, garbee.

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 10:05:00 GMT

Ang 11-7.. Bow.

I'm done with the ever-famous Journal, garbe.

Hindi pa 'ko naliligo. Maliligo pa lang heehee, it's like fcukin cold, garbe.

And nakaka-trauma ang aming first day, garbe. (Ang sad really, reality of life)

Ang I'm feeling I didn't sleep good, better, best this afternoon, garbe.

Kape-ops sa ER later ulit mamaya, garbe.

Triage?! (speeelll!) ako mamaya, garbe.

And I want to be an eskimo, garbe.

And sobra kong maahaal ang kasama kong nag-joyride kanina, garbe. :D

And si Melody ang reason kung bakit nagkaroon ng word na GARBEE.

@____@

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Lighter note:

Dearest Lord,

I'm hoping for more people to survive and to live. And if in case they can't, I'm hoping for more spaces there, in heaven, with you :)

With all the love in this world,
Your great, great, great, great, great, to the nth power, child

Updating purposes :)

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 11:37:41 GMT

Gusto ko lang mag-update for this season, ayee Krismas. Deehh, I just want to update for the last days of 2008. Oha.

Speaking of Christmas, Krisian, KJ and I are really experiencing the Christmas season. Tomorrow will be our 4th day na magsimbang gabi sa SLU. Ohaang-oha. We're so great, hehe. Hmmm, I'm still hoping I can reach the 24th. Bummm.

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Went to CCA kanina, Beezness struck! And here's one benta line.

KJ: Che dagdagan mo nga pera ko, gusto ko ng MANI!
Chek: Ah magkano ba?
KJ: 10pesos lang!
Chek: Magkano ba kulang sa pera mo?
KJ: 10pesos. :|

Mga taong 'to oh. Heehee. We're Mamuys kanina. Mga mamuyyy na kumakain ng sweet corn, hotdog, chicken balls, fishballs, mani at TAKOYAKI! *Yum*

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And to end the day, I had found out about this one issue about Nursing coming from the point of view of a CEA student. Tsismis kasi kanina eh and kanina ko lang nalaman, hehe. Gahh, matutuwa na talaga ako sa umpisa. I mean I was really impressed and I admired pa nga him e, he's tough ha. Pero at the end of his article, everything went upside down. Haha. Sayang naman, na-appreciate pa naman kita kahit papaano sa pagkutya mo sa nursing (Not that I'm against my own college), it's just that my something sa article mo e BUT THEN nga, you ended it so wrong. Hmm, so to conclude - PUBLICITY sake. :| Maybe it's one of his Christmas wish this year na maging artista and sumikat. Well, you've done it. Congrats :| Cheers, pare. /:)

Oh, mukha bang air-headed /:)

OT: Infairness ha, na-disappoint kami nung hindi kami ang cover ng W&B. Hehee, mafeeling kasi. :>

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Natutuwa kuya ko sa Diyosa (What the..?!) Gad Lord, for the spirit of Christmas ito.

Will be watching UB's Cantata tomorrow. Hopin' to see UB friends and GBCians :) Yay.

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Last duty for this year was over. Jail, guys. It was the really, really fun. It's fun to have spent the Christmas season with these people. They're inmates willing to change and be changed and have the capacity to change. Hmm, I was having this separation anxiety yesterday maybe because of the 7-days of attachment. I'll surely miss my girls and my boys :> "That's my boys!"

Dehh, honestly speaking it was full of fun inside. Kung pupuwede nga lang mag-wish na makalaya na sila, why not diba. :) And the last day was a blast :) I'll surely miss the district and municipal people. That's my boys!

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My 2 last exams for the year will still be coming tomorrow! Divine intervention! Awo. Awo.
Got to gooo :)

PALA. Tumutubo na wisdom tooth ko. T__T (Tamang-tama for exams, para tumalino ako! BWAHAHAHA) Bleh. :|

Duty songs syndrome, yay.

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 00:26:28 GMT

Bugoy's Pa'no Na Kaya was really a show or everything stopper for me. Heehee. You know Med Ward dun sa SLU? Altar na kasi tawag ko dun sa table na may radio-oh-oh. Dehh, napapa-pause lang ako for a moment kapag biglang pina-play yung Pa'no Na Kaya AT nagkakataon lang talaga e no, na 'pag ako dumadaan, biglang nagpla-play AT sa F.M pa ha. Pa'no Na Kaya ops with Krisiang and Micang.

Ang Whatever You Like ni Sir Pao Siops. Haha. With the matching mask pa and Souljaahhh Boy's dancestep. Awoo, awwoo parang iisa lang patient natin sa buong ward ha. Haha.

Lolli, Lolli ni Krisiang at may sariling version ito. Haha. Ang cheesy. :D Haha, supplier of the ultimate Chupa-Chups for the past three days sa Med. Dangerous din pala ni Andrew. DAW. Hiphop-er kami pag sa Med eh.

And speaking of Drew narin, nagsa-sales talk siya about his PATAK. :| Si Sir may free taste, kami wala! Sows. Haha. And speaking of Drew narin, when I was writing my SOAP, bigla siyang lumapit, then sabay sabi.."LIMOT! (Turo to the right), LIMOT! (Turo to the left).." at hindi ko alam kung bakit ginawa niya yun sa akin. Haha. Yan ang napapala sa kaka-bedside care sa isang patient na may T.V sa room. Kaya pala nasa bedside eh. Haha.

I Have Two Hands, the left and the right! Gah. Akin lang naman ito, haha. This is the song I had sung in front of my patient AND his husband AND his daughter, na eventually kumalat sa lahat ng watchers na bumibisita sa kanya, haha. Gadlord, napaka-sooo nice and unbelievable. Hmm, very special kasi si lola, kaya kailangan niya rin ng special voice. Gahh, really it was - the first time. AND LAST NA. Haha. I can't imagine myself na kinakanta PLUS actions :|. Haha. Feeling Tam-tam lang ang patient ha. /:)

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NPO kami for the past two days sa Med. Rar, like 11pm na kami kumakain altogether sa dressing room, after every duty. Gutom eh, it's better to eat than to make syncope along the way, oha. Kanina lang hindi :) Pati ang C.I, nakiki-symphatize daw. Awoooo. Hehe. Binigyan pala namin si Sir ng kababuyan ops namin, haha. Parang one piece ulam ang donation sa aming lima. Hehe.

And I have this greatest shock of my life. Haha. Pang-code 77chuva ang drama. Deeh, na-amaze lang ako sa bote ng Fit-N-Right kanina. It was really amazing. Despite the schedule, we're still fit and right for each other ang drama kanina with Melody. Hehe. Deehh, natutuwa lang talaga ako sa bote na yun. Akalain mo. :D

Si Jever, haha, malandi, naglalandi, maglalandi. PIRRYOOOD THREE TIMES ;)) I love you so much my soon to be neighbor. Haha. :D

Si Aryang, binigyan niya ako ng nice greeting during her pre-visit, "Toxic yang patient mo!" Haha, si Lola pala yung sinasabi niya, when she had her overnight here sa bahay, na 'wag ko kukunin kasi madaming meds. Akalain mo nga naman. Talagang meant to be sa akin, hindi ko naman kinuha, DIVINE INTERVENTION lang. Weh.

And Ma'am Cloty-Cloty was there. Yay, with St. Therese as her guide, oha. Nurse niya? Melody lang naman. Heehee.

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I'm so overwhelmed this day. Gusto kong mag-kwentot, bukas wala na 'to. Haha.

Goodnight guys. Chills. Shivers. Rar. Lamigs.